Sometimes

I need someone I can share my secret heart to. No judgment.
When the obsession comes,
Thoughts to run. To get away
From the isolation. Funny
Run
BEcause I feel alone.
Get away from those who know
Find someone
That understands the isolation
Of standing in a crowded room
Seeing all the eyes, flit over me, through me,
Breaking
Through the mask
And dismissing.
Rushing to the next thing
Without me. Past me.

I am not the center of your world,
Just mine.

What do you know?
How did you become so
Important? To

Me

That's what this really is.
An obsession.

Again

It'll pass.

You did.

I don't even think of you

Anymore

Much.

I remeber

When I loved you.

I'm on my own.

I made the decision to stay, work it out, try harder.
He said he'd try. Try listening. Try respecting. Try supporting.
He did.
For...It's March now, so 4 months.
That's a long time.
I mention 25 years
And he rolls his eyes
An stops.
Listening, respecting, supporting.

No one to call and tell. I'm on my own.

Again.