17-40
At seventeen
No thought was clean,
So close to purity of thought.
At eighteen
stuck in between,
never understood what she had wrought.
At twenty-one
So much fun
Oh, he really is the one!
At twenty-three,
Does he love me?
At twenty five,
Again -
Does he love me?
At twenty-seven,
Does it matter?
At thirty-four,
Not any more.
At nearly forty,
What will I do?
So filled with doubt.
Uncertain – Fool!
Looking for approval, again. Somehow I need to fill this need for the approval of others. It may not make any sense to most, but if I'm to keep up this facade of confidence, then someone has to let me know I'm doing OK.
Bannana Slug
This is how I've been feeling about life and how I move through it.
About Me
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- OR, United States
- Married mom of 40, wondering what life is all about.
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Books I'm Reading or Have Read Recently.
- Memoirs, Pablo Neruda
- The Poet's Companion, Kim Addonizio and Dorianne Laux
- The Norton Antholoby of Poetry, fifth edition, Ferguson, Salter, Stallworthy
- What We Carry, Poems, Dorianne Laux
- The Age of Turbulence, Adventures in a New World, Alan Greenspan
- The Iliad, Homer, Translation by Robert Fitzgerald
- Nature's Operating Instructions, Edited by Kenny Ausubel with J.P. Harpignies
- Everyman's Poetry, Robert Browning
- Selected Poems, Robert Frost
- Selected Poems, Emily Dickinson
- The Waste Land and other poems, T.S. Eliot
- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, J.K. Rowling
- Life of Pi, Yann Martel
- Shakespear's Language, Frank Kermode
- The Assault on Reason, Al Gore
- Shakespear Four Comedies/The Taming of the Shrew, Midsummer Nights Dream, The Merchant of Venice, Twelfth Night
- Facts About the Moon, Dorianne Laux
- The Best American Essays 2002, Edited by Stephen Jay Gould
- How to Invest in Rental Properties, Mabel Armstrong
- Odes to Common Things, Pablo Neruda
- Limbo Blue-Collar Roots, White-Collar Dreams, Alfred Lubrano
- 250 Poems, a Portable Anthology, Edited by Schakel/Ridl
- Animal, Vegetable, Miralcle, Barbara Kingsolver
- Blessing The Boats, Lucille Clifton
- Carry On Jeeves, P.G. Wodehouse
- Catch-22, Joseph Heller
- China Men, Maxine Hong Kingston
- Class Matters, Correspondents of "The New York Times"
- Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
- Dreamcatcher, Stephen King
- Envy, Sandra Brown
- Literature, Class, and Culture An Anthology, Lauter/Fitzgerald
- Lysistrata Aristophanes, Translation by Douglass Parker
- Memoirs of a Geisha, Arthur Golden
- Powerful Words, Wade Hudson
- Seizure, Robin Cook
- The Accidental Tourist, Ann Tyer
- The Audacity of Hope, Barack Obama
- The Essential Rumi, Translations by Coleman Barks
- The Slate Diaries, Edited by Kantor/Krohn/Shulevitz
Inspirations
Me
Pictures of the Moon
This is the view.
The start of something
What do you see?
eyes
Haunted night
Angry blue eyes
What I saw.
Max eyes
1 comment:
I like this one because with so few words, you just told a lifetime of thoughts. The difference that just a few short years can make on our outlook or on our selves in general just blows me away, and how most of the time we never recognize the profound changes in our thought processes and our views until much later. Than, we are flabbergasted and wonder when in the hell we changed so much that we don't even know the person we were anymore. Maybe we don't want to remember who we were, but to become who we ARE, we must acknowledge the journey of who we were.
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